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Agoraphobia, Panic Attacks
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Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

"Every morning I wake up & worry.. what's going to happen today"

This section is a very important one to me, because I suffer from all of these conditions. I won't go into all the gory details about *how* I got them. Most of the details are too personal to share with anyone other than my closest family & friends. Some details I've never shared with anyone other than my own journals or God.

All of the sections discuss how people get them, in general, though.

These are all recognized & legitimate afflictions. In fact, I receive monthly SSI Disability checks from the U.S. Government because I cannot work outside my home. This would be the same as a physically disabled person receiving benefits.. except that I am, for lack of better words, mentally disabled.

Being accepted for SSI Disability was not an easy thing. I had to visit SSI doctors & provide tons of documentation from previous jobs (which I could only keep for limited periods of time), friends, family, therapists, counselors, doctors, etc.

I was rejected the first time I applied. I had to appeal.. and go through the whole documentation process again. The second time, I was approved.

I was notified of my acceptance by mail.. and was so happy! Then I thought.. "Wait a second.. I've just been declared mentally disabled by the U.S. Government!" Not exactly a thing to be proud of.. :) I couldn't work, though, and the money was much needed. This was about two & a half years ago (as of this writing -- 2/13/02).

You might be asking yourself why I would share all of this with anyone who happens to stumble across my website. My reason is very simple -- When I first started getting the symptoms I thought I was going crazy.. that *I* was the only person on Earth to ever go through what I was going through. If my page can help just ONE person either understand me a little better, or help them know they are not alone, not going crazy.. then it was worth it to me. Period.

Where Do You Want To Go?

Panic Attacks


Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

A Journal Excerpt

"If You Were A Wizard"

Letter From A Counselor

More to come soon.. including what it's like to be *me*. Please check back.

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